Saturday, September 20, 2003
19 years, 1 journey, a dozen roads. overlapping, crisscrossing, detouring, getting lost, being found, wandering, hitchhiking, turning left, turning right, turning off the beaten path, uphill, downhill, zigzagging, meandering, where does it all lead?
the view keeps changing, i ride by sky and field and grass and highrise building, trying to find out where i belong. i think of getting on a plane and rising higher than the clouds; even in my imagination the airyness in my heart cannot be explained by the altitude...i'm alive but am i living? the plane lands, my feet are shaky and i can't really feel the earth below me. i wobble off the landing strip, onto sounder ground.
19 years, 1 journey, a story far from complete, yet not quite at the very beginning. the destination is still far away in the distance, though the general direction is more clear than not. the sun sets as the ride goes on but rises again in the morning to shine anew. and each day i just keep going, keep walking, keep trudging on, hoping that one day i will walk fast enough to gain momentum, take off and fly away. to where my home is.
...........................
i just love the one year bible reading passage every 20th of september...
"Even youths grow tired and
weary,
and young men stumble
and fall;
but those who hope in the
Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like
eagles;
they will run and not grow
weary,
they will walk and not be
faint."
-Isaiah 40: 30-31
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went to el cerrito with my roommate this morning to look for a refrigerator and a nice chair to put in our dorm room. waited really really long for the bus, we were going to take this bus that was supposed to be super fast, but when we got to the bus stop we realized the bus doesn't run on saturdays, so we had to take the regular slow bus. after that, we got off at the wrong stop, it was too far away to walk to the shopping place, so we had to wait for another bus to arrive. we left at 10.30, by the time we got there it was almost 12. i was supposed to be back at 1 to meet my friends for lunch at the cafeteria so we had to speed shop...ended up not buying very much. the refrigerator was too big for us to lug back anyway. thought i was going to be late coz at 1 i was still waiting for the bus to get me back to sch...called to let my friends know i'll be late then rushed down.
the cafeteria was a total mess...something exploded so the place was flooded, they had to shift the salad bar somewhere else. think it was the dishwasher, coz instead of the ceramic dishes we usually eat out from everyone was using paper plates and cups, and using plastic utensils. anyway...had my lunch at the cafeteria, then one of my friends asked me to walk to the dessert section with her, i was kinda full but i went anyway...she took an awfully long time, looking at the dessert and not getting anything, then going to the drinks place to get apple juice (with lots of ice, so she says)...then another of our friends came to look for us, and when we went back to the table there was a birthday cake there! ha...i was playing dumb, kind of knew they had something planned when she dragged me off to get dessert...but it was still really sweet of them. some of the guys got up in the morning to go buy the cake (and we all went to bed at 3 plus in the morning, ha) at 1, which was when i called to tell them i would be late, bet they were relieved.
came back from lunch really stuffed of cake, and there was a huge poster on the wall outside my room from all my floormates, some of them wrote the weirdest stuff...but most of it was kind. the day's only been half over but it's been a fantastic birthday already!
received rachel's birthday present...girl, you're probably never going to find time to read this, but it's really creative! love the most eligible husband contest part, ha...and it reached me just on the right day too. thank you with lots of love!
of course, cannot leave out one of the greatest parts of the day...a surprise phone call...you know who you are, thanks a bunch. we made 30 mins! =)
i think i like being 19...but i really couldn't give you an honest report till the next september 20th...things look optimistic though!
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the view keeps changing, i ride by sky and field and grass and highrise building, trying to find out where i belong. i think of getting on a plane and rising higher than the clouds; even in my imagination the airyness in my heart cannot be explained by the altitude...i'm alive but am i living? the plane lands, my feet are shaky and i can't really feel the earth below me. i wobble off the landing strip, onto sounder ground.
19 years, 1 journey, a story far from complete, yet not quite at the very beginning. the destination is still far away in the distance, though the general direction is more clear than not. the sun sets as the ride goes on but rises again in the morning to shine anew. and each day i just keep going, keep walking, keep trudging on, hoping that one day i will walk fast enough to gain momentum, take off and fly away. to where my home is.
...........................
i just love the one year bible reading passage every 20th of september...
"Even youths grow tired and
weary,
and young men stumble
and fall;
but those who hope in the
Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like
eagles;
they will run and not grow
weary,
they will walk and not be
faint."
-Isaiah 40: 30-31
............................
went to el cerrito with my roommate this morning to look for a refrigerator and a nice chair to put in our dorm room. waited really really long for the bus, we were going to take this bus that was supposed to be super fast, but when we got to the bus stop we realized the bus doesn't run on saturdays, so we had to take the regular slow bus. after that, we got off at the wrong stop, it was too far away to walk to the shopping place, so we had to wait for another bus to arrive. we left at 10.30, by the time we got there it was almost 12. i was supposed to be back at 1 to meet my friends for lunch at the cafeteria so we had to speed shop...ended up not buying very much. the refrigerator was too big for us to lug back anyway. thought i was going to be late coz at 1 i was still waiting for the bus to get me back to sch...called to let my friends know i'll be late then rushed down.
the cafeteria was a total mess...something exploded so the place was flooded, they had to shift the salad bar somewhere else. think it was the dishwasher, coz instead of the ceramic dishes we usually eat out from everyone was using paper plates and cups, and using plastic utensils. anyway...had my lunch at the cafeteria, then one of my friends asked me to walk to the dessert section with her, i was kinda full but i went anyway...she took an awfully long time, looking at the dessert and not getting anything, then going to the drinks place to get apple juice (with lots of ice, so she says)...then another of our friends came to look for us, and when we went back to the table there was a birthday cake there! ha...i was playing dumb, kind of knew they had something planned when she dragged me off to get dessert...but it was still really sweet of them. some of the guys got up in the morning to go buy the cake (and we all went to bed at 3 plus in the morning, ha) at 1, which was when i called to tell them i would be late, bet they were relieved.
came back from lunch really stuffed of cake, and there was a huge poster on the wall outside my room from all my floormates, some of them wrote the weirdest stuff...but most of it was kind. the day's only been half over but it's been a fantastic birthday already!
received rachel's birthday present...girl, you're probably never going to find time to read this, but it's really creative! love the most eligible husband contest part, ha...and it reached me just on the right day too. thank you with lots of love!
of course, cannot leave out one of the greatest parts of the day...a surprise phone call...you know who you are, thanks a bunch. we made 30 mins! =)
i think i like being 19...but i really couldn't give you an honest report till the next september 20th...things look optimistic though!
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